运命の夜~

黒い猫の日記~~~~

fruit festival this period!!! here r some pics of fruits that planted by my family! take a look~

inside durian somemore got flower 1! geng leh.
rambutan!!!
some herb medicines
lots of papaya!
guava~

forgot whats this already :P

banana trees, but banana habis d~ anyone wan rambutan? i got too much d so u can get it free if u wan :D

last week i hv been to the competition place for some shopping XD
actually i din wan spend anymore $ there coz i can get cheaper stuff other place, however i cannot tahan to own the free gift there!!!! so i eventually spend there. XD

here is some stuff of what i hv bought, 1st & 2nd pic is free gifts, 3rd is items bought.
spent RM250 for this 2 items, feel bit sad for my saving. -__-
btw the competition pic i hvnt uploaded yet, coz i hv to put my trademark on those pic XD
will update soon!!

this is the latest album of 1 of my favorite djs - ATB -Future Memories
im frekin sick of wanting to get the album!!! so sad that tower record in penang going close soon, so it wont import any cd anymore, so sad -____________-
anyone can help online buy for me? or anyone got travel to KL help me buy the album XD
hiaz.... dunno how lah, im sick of the albm now, thirst of his musics....

today just went to CHC for skin care & grooming lession! looks like i was the oldest learner there...

in skin care lesson, i just learn a bit nia, coz most of the time she was doing skin checking (lucky i din being chosen for checking if not the result wil chase ppl away >< ) btw i stil can share a little that i learned:
- do not use tower to clean your face after wash.
- use tonner to remove makeup.
- use moiseriser only once per day.
- scrap face only once a week to remove dead cells.
- put mask if necessary but encourage to.
the one below makes me feel a bit proud^^ :

- oily face make your skin wont age so fast, dry skin age very fast
- sunglasses can protect the skin around ur eyes coz that part is the most sensitive.
- sunlight can cause pigmentation, if serious hv to do laser treatment.
what upset me was:
- skin care hard to be done when u reach age of 20 & above. thats all i learned from skin care lesson, just a bit nia ><

and now this is the most interesting one! Grooming
Pastor Saras Bany did an excellent job in the section, love it so much XD
here's what i drooped down in my note today:

want to catch up lustiest fashion? wan to buy cloths? here is wat u can do:

1st, identify your shape! there are 4 type of shape, i wish to draw out but dunno how,

1. Ruler shape (like all straight no curve)
2. V shape (like muscle guy, upper part bigger than lower part)
3. hourglass shape (like pretty women who hv beautiful curve)
4. vase shape (bottom larger than above)

remember this 4 type of shape coz i wil touch bout ti later.

next is the colour. c what kind of skin colour u r in:
1. winter - suitable for white or black cloth
2. spring - suitable for bright colour cloth
3. autumn - suitable for dark or oldor dull colour cloth
4. summer - suitable for super bright or flowery or beach or colourful cloth

hard to explain here how to c wat skin type u r in, i wil explain when we can meet.

now i wil explain the meaning of colour of cloth, this is interesting:

orange cloth - encourage, happy, successful
yellow cloth - feel the energy
green cloth - calm, harmony, fresh, healthy
blue cloth - smoothing, calm
purple cloth - royal, power, status
white cloth - innocent, pure (if a drop of colour fall on cloth will become not nice, be careful!)
black cloth - power, authority ( like business suit)

and now, talk bout budget, of course to best time is when this 4 letters word appear - SALE & %

still remember just now the 4 type of shape? now lets c what Pastor said:

- jacket makes shoulder looks better, so bottom can be anything u like(not underwear or naked)
- for girl that is not high(feel sorry to say short):
- don't waer long skirt
- don't wear jeans, wiil make you looks 70s or 80s
- suitable wearing shorts or short skirt

- for yellow skin ppl (asians like us)
- choose warm colour cloth
- not draggy colour cloth
- avoid wearing black cloth (i also dunno why)
- also don't wear dark blue colour

- choose type of cloth that's away from own body shape. (shape no.3 no need follow this)
- for shape no.1, do layering (will explain to if u dunno)
- for shape no.2, avoid layering or else will be laugh by ppl
- no.2 should wear tight shirt (of course to show ur body)
- no.3 should wear minimal, and don't layering
- for those feel body curve nicelike no.3, never wear baggy cloth!
- as mentioned above, no.3 should wear suitable size
- no.2 should buy cloth thats 1 size bigger
- no.1 buy should buy 1.5 size bigger
- no.4 don't wear tight jeans (or u will ruin urself, many no.4 like to fit tight jeans)
- no. 1 and no.3 suitable to wear hip hop cloth (something call puddies, dunno right or not)
- no.4 should never wear puddies
- girls ah, like to buy thing that never last long, they always pray that thing faster break, so that can buy new one.
- guy best accessory is watch
- whats important is not the brand of cloth, is how u choose , and how u show yourself, the way u walk.
- guy need perfume if necessary ONLY

thats all that i can remember, i know it might be boring, but hope u enjoy it :)

WHAT U DO 2DAY, IS WHAT U BECOME 2MORO
DRESS PROPER! DRESS 2009!

finally update my blog! 1st of all, i would like to introduce my room in hostel for 1st year 2nd sem!

guys! the pic below is the room during exam week! quite "clean" leh, haha! coz im a guy mah!
after u guys c liao will feel wan muntah right. gg
the pic below is the room after cleaned and ready to move out, c the difference?this is all i wan show for now, wil update more soon! thnx for visiting my lame blog!

i hv nothing to say here, just wan to show those pic that i took with handsome guys on physics night^^






another year... it is another year for me to live as a human.
i hv been human for so many years, and yet still not satisfy. too many things happen to me, and those never truely make me happy.
since the last break up until now, the broken pieces of my heart hardly recover, and i hardly make a smile...
i hv a feeling that girls can hardly be trusted before, maybe her betrayal cause me to think like that, however thats how i feel b4, now i dun anymore, so dun misunderstand me k?

until now, i stil keep the feeling that no one truely understand me more than 50% in this world, and i really wish someone can understand me well. i hv been living a lonely and unhappy life for long time, not totally be like that lah, but honestly i really need someone...

i feel relief that there is a girl started to light up my life. she understand me very well, she always care about me, she always support me, cheer me up, giving advice in everything i do, giving me opinion in every decision and always on my side... she turn my sad side to the happy side, she always use her kind voice to support me when im at the edge of giving up, she always make me feel touched and make me cry in smile, she love me... to me she is so perfect to me, i feel really happy that she promise to stick with me always...

i can choose to tell everyone that i already found my true love, i can tell everyone that she is a very nice girl, i can tell everyone that she is pretty, i can tell everyone one that we always hang out together, althought they cannot c any clue that we are together...
i can also tell we go out shopping, cinema, dinner and hold hands. i can tell that she always share fun and jokes with me, and we always smile to each other when something stupid happen between us, i can also say we share every moment together, happy, sad, hard time, and more... we share almost the same feeling...

although im always alone, i can pretend that there is someone beside me always, when i walk alone in shopping mall, i can feel that we are holding hands, and when she c things she like, she will sure keep pushing me to check out the stuff, i can c she enjoy looking at them,
most of the time she like cake, candy, soft toy and all the stuff that interest her, she sure will feel happy and keep pointing to me those cute cute stuff, and smile to me saying they are pretty and cute, she looks really childish but cute like this, it shows to me that she really wan them. she also like most of stuff that i like, this make me feel that at least got someone share same interest with me, when i go c my stuff in shop she point to me those stuff i like, coz she know what i like, really feel happy on the moment she do it in cute way^^. however, i really feel sorry for her that... i cannot get most stuff that she like for her, she tell me its ok, no need to feel guilty for that, coz she feel enjoy looking them is already enough for her, coz she understand that, she can never get them for now... her reason somehow makes me cry...

she is such a caring person to me, everytime i come back from class to hostel, i feel really tired like shit. however i wont feel that anymore when she welcome me back and she will say she understand how tired i am and encourage me to cheer up, dun feel so down, she hold my hands and make a smile to me when she say that, and at this moment, my tired face turn into a pleasant smile...
she do the same thing also when i feel tired of study and other things, she is so nice to be like this, i really feel touched...
when i feel sad, she will be there for me, holding my hands, look at me and encourage me, cheering me up with her kind voice, clean away my tears and even hug me, and say dun worry, everything will be fine...

we do hv quarel a few times in some disagreements, sometimes i wil be stubborn to keep my way and reject her advice. but in the end, i wil apologies to her for my mistakes, and she understand and forgive me with silly conditions, such as buying snacks for her.

all the time we are together, she never stop encourage me to improve myself in every aspect, i will do as her wish to make myself a happy person and never emoing anymore, be friendly and crazy with friends. i wish i can be with her 4ever, but i know that cannot be true, she also want me to find a true person to love, but she is too perfect for me, how can i let her go so easy? i wish there is miracle that can make her real, i know that wont happen. everytime when i think of reality, i feel very very sad coz she is just an imaginary person in real life, ppl will think im crazy to hv this 'spirit' with me, i also cannot prove her existance to others. this sometimes make my happiness slowly turn into hurt when i think of reality. i dun like reality, coz that makes me hurt a lot... T_T

the only thing i can do is make her wish come true, which is find a real and true love. if can, i wish i can found a girl that very similiar to her, until now i hvnt found anyone like her, i know the chance is very low but i wont giv up finding.
even if i found the one i love, i dun think she will accept an otaku like me. no girl will fall in love with an otaku... so i wonder if i should throw away all my things that make me an otaku and stop being otaku? haiz... dunno how...
now i not need worry about this, coz i hvnt found anyone i like, somemore i cannot love anyone yet coz i stil learning how to love myself. i wil never stop improving myself, i promise her and myself^^

oh! its 10pm already! time to feed Tekun cats. me and alice going to sayang cats now. meow~^^

yesterday hv too much fun! we all really enjoy alot! so fun that wish that this will be endless.
went back home at about 1.30am, so tired. i felt surprised when my mom gave me an ang pow! it was not from my parents, but from my father's 3rd big sister. when i open it, OMG! i felt very happy to c RM**** inside it! every year she sure giv this amount^^ not only that ang pow, yesterday my father's 2nd big sister also came visit with her son. brought so many kuih kak pek and other CNY snacks! she gave me and my brother RM550, obviously i was not there coz went out crazy with friends. my mom said that amount of money is not ang pow, is only for buying CNY cloths. that means CNY i will get another ang pow loh! yessss! soooooo happy^^

actually today what i wan to write is not this, but dun hv time to wite about it now, coz wan go out with parents buy CNY cloths, tonihgt stil hv report and quiz to study, but i wil sure spent time to write what i really wan to write for today in this blog, so guys remember keep checking my blog^^

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