today it is raining whole day...
does this show a sign that my feeling will be worse than before?
i tried to turn myself to be happy again...
however... this hurts me a lot... and i have to avoid my hand sweat again...
i have to be happy! coz i don't want my friends to see me like this...
i took a deep breath... and go to the gathering... and pretend nothing happen...
the gathering wasn't going well... my friends all just wait for someone to lead them... so i have to voice out again to save time...
although many friends attend the gathering, less people talk to me...
if someone talk to me just very short conversations...
i tried to start talk about something with them... however they end it fast and look away...
i felt more and more lonely in the gathering...again...
i just a nobody in the gathering...again...
the worse moment is i meet her again... it made me flash back to the past...
she just say hi to me... and left with her love one...
i can only wish her good luck with him... perhaps this is her true happiness...
although i still feel it was not fair... i can do nothing about it...
now im home... and i dunno why i write this in blog...
im so useless... tears almost drop on keyboard... and not dare to look at mirror...
i will just close my eyes... and wish for better 2moro...
Posted by
OZY the Black Cat
1 comments:
heya. please be strong. and do bear in mind that u still have us. Friends come and go. But BEST FRIENDS will always be there for you. Don't force yourself to be happy for your friends. Instead be happy because you have em =)
Cheer up! Ozay you can do it.
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