运命の夜~

i can't hold it much longer...
there is something heavy in my heart that hard to be removed...

why i have this feeling again after such a long time...
i don't want it...i don't want it!

why i so unlucky to meet her again...
those memories that i have long forgotten storm inside my mind again...
and the feeling towards her touch my heart again...

i want a new life... however her presence hold me to the past...

it was unfair... it hurt so much... it hurt so... much...

for past few days im having sleepless night...
the feeling of loneliness haunted me all night...

what should i do? my mind is empty...
why i can't remember physics as good as remembering my painful past time?

i wish to be emotionless, i want to throw away all the emotions in my heart...
this is the only way to save myself from hurt...

however... i can only forget the meaning of happiness...
this make me hard to truly smile in front of ppl...

tears still dropping... im so stupid and shameful to be a crying guy...