my life really change... i tried to fix everything but i fail to...
my mother still treat me as usual...
but my dad...still not happy with me...ignore me every time i talk to him...
im already invincible to the outside ppl...now my family also c me as invincible...
im now falling into deepest loneliness... worst than before...
now there is one thing left with me... but i wonder when it wil left me... im sure this will happen soon...
''its ok...everything will be fine...'' this statement i always use to keep myself back to normal... but it is useless now...
no one will understand me, god also wont accept me...i hv nowhere to belong to now... why the world hv to treat me like this...why i will never hv a better day to live...
if this is my fate... i hv only one wish...hv a day live with happiness...and hv a happy ending to pay for the day...
perhaps...i will be happy...if that happen...maybe it wont happen also...
..........so sad.......cannot deny it......but its ok........everything will end soon....perhaps...........
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OZY the Black Cat
1 comments:
Hey..that day i din angry u for ur big secret nor i dowan u as fren anymore...my msn got prob..now i nid to use ebuddy...
U know what? i really angry for is that u alwiz thinks : that u r the saddest person, that ppl alwiz abandoned u, that all ppl ignore u including God(im not a christian and yet i believe taht God does exist and wont abandon anyone), that we dumped u for another fren if given a choice, that we r born to be happy while u r born to be sad+abandoned, stop all these craps..no one was born to be sad ad abandoned.. jay was right that if u wanna wat abandoned really means,go orphanage or old folks home..
I tell u,we all have sad things n frustrated things..not that all in our lives is just bout enjoying and having fun and being happy and being noted by everyone..we do have sad stuffs..just that we r not like u alwiz think bout the negative stuff..we wil think bout +ve stuff.. And u alwiz say we have other frens and u have only us..i dun understand why u keep saying that..izzit that important that u have millions of frens?that when we r hanging out, all of us shud talk to u, put all our attention exclusively to only YOU??!!
Hey..when we r hanging out, sure all of us will talk and crapping in groups..surely will have time when no one talk exclusively only to u...but that doesnt mean u r alone or we r ignoring u...please understand that OZY!!
Sometimes really, i feel that u r much too sensitive...u shudnt be that sensitive...u alwiz think that we will dump u n ignore u anytime..but we did not and we wont...u r our fren and we alwiz treat u as one..so stop thinking that crap that we will dump u!!!
And bout ur secret, yes...i admit im 100% dun agree with u clinging on that...but i know the importance to u..so as fren, we can just help u get out from it and advise u...till the end it still depend u to make final decision bout what to do...
Im really sorry if what i said hurt u but i alwiz talk whatever comes to mind the first instance...so dun get offended k?u r not that small gas de i know...lol..
Till then, all the best in finals...after finals ny we slowly talk bout it k...take care...
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