运命の夜~

last week i have promised myself to let her go away from my mind, but i didn't...
i just tried to deny, temporaly escape from it...
i knew what will happen in the end...it really happen...
i still cannot forget her...
everytime when i feel tired and lonely...i really need someone to talk to me...someone care about me...
she used to smile and encourage me everytime i feel sad and lonely...it was so nice...
today...even though she left already...even though i try to forget about her...
however...it hurts...
everytime i try to deny the fact that i still miss her...it hurts...
everytime i try to deny the fact that i still need her when im lonely...it hurts more...
although i have new friends already...im still the loneliess one compare to them...
every night still...im all alone...
i tried not to remember her...i tried not to remember her voice...
but i still...
everytime everything ended in tears...
i wonder how many times i have to cry until i forget her...
i wonder if i will be lonely 4ever...
i really feel i fail to be a human somehow...
i really feel if i have to end my journey somehow...
no matter what...i still feel lonely in tears...
just wish 2moro will be ok...