运命の夜~

it is still another day...as usual...
i woke up again...still alive...as usual...
i packed up my things and went to class...still as usual...

it was still another same lecture hours...as usual...
i still meet my friends...as usual...
we went eat together at Subaidah...still as usual...

we still have fun and jokes...as usual...
i still keep quiet...as usual...
my heart still reject what i wish to change...as usual...

people around me still writing sms...as usual...
people around me still chatting on phone...as usual...
nothing happen to my phone...still as usual...

im still feel lonely somehow...as usual...

when i sit together with people, they were all busy with their phone...
if it was not sms, it was another call...
they were telling stories and what they were doing on phone...
they are having someone on the phone who cares about each other...
no matter where i go and what time it is...people busy with their phone...
no one sms or call me...my phone remained silent...
i used to have days with lots of sms and phone calls from someone i care...
i used to have someone care about me every moment...and call me when im sad and lonely...
since she left...it is over...
days pass by with my phone silent all the time...
somehow i wonder if those days will come for another time...
im having another lonely day...accompany by active time...
it is still very hard... to forget about my past time...
i still miss her...all the time...
i wonder if i should put a stop...to my life time...
if only i get the permission...from time...